Testimony of Extraordinary 2011

October 26, 2011

Matthew 4:8-10
Again, the devil took Him up on an exceedingly high mountain, and sowed Him all the kingdoms of the world and their glory.
And he said to Him, "All these things I will give You if You will fall down and worship me."
Then Jesus said ti him, "Away with you Satan! For it is written, "you shall worship the Lord your God, and Him only you shall serve."

Well Conference is over and I am still having a ball with Jesus. Saturday morning Pastor Heath a dynamic word from the Lord and it was then that I was set free from grieving Charisse's daddy's death. I nailed guilt to the CROSS, I am free forever. I also, on that day gave Fibromyalgia and all the infirmities to JESUS. Does this mean I won't battle these, probably not, in fact the devil will probably fight harder, but I refuse to bow down to them and worship it anymore.
My pain management doctor suggested that I take Cymbalta for the Fibromyalgia, that is an anti-depressant. I refuse to bow down to the spirit of depression, I refuse to let depression to have authority in my life anymore. I also refuse to have Fibromyalgia, Arthritis, and every pinching nerve in my body to have authority in my life.

I believe that me and my daughter were set free during Conference. Charisse gave an awesome testimony. Well, there's my testimony of EXTRAORDINARY 2011. I will never forget this Conference.
Thank you Pastor Linda for loving women so much.

May 30, 2011

Written at 1:42 am

This has been the longest and hardest month for me, physically, financially, spiritually, and emotionally.

Physically - I've been in so much pain that it has taken my breath away.

Financially - Not having any food and really not knowing when my next meal will be or come from.

Emotionally - Felling that I am all alone.

Spiritually - Feeling like I'm walking through a desert being so dry and parched.

But God is faithful. He has comforted me through my pain. He has provided for me. He has showed me that I'm not alone even when I feel as if I'm walking through the desert. In my physical body, I've been in so much pain that I would pray that the Lord would take me home but instead He has comforted me through it. Financially, there's been days where I would have just bread and water or milk, if I had it and I am grateful that I even had that. Through all this I have felt all alone. But God is faithful, always. He would give me days with almost no pain where I didn't need a pain pill. Financially, I would be so hungry and really not knowing when my next meal will be or even come from. There's been days where I would have only two slices of bread and a glass of milk, but I've been so grateful that I even had that. There has been a couple of people who heard the voice of God and helped me and will always be grateful for these wonderful people, and pray blessings on their lives. Spiritually, I've felt as if I am walking through a desert so dry and parched but God has allowed me to drink deep of His presence and love. I can't ignore my emotions, they have been on such a Roller Coaster, feeling all alone in all this, but the Lord showed me that that is a lie. I really didn't think people really cared so I wouldn't ask God to raise up Intercessors on my behalf. The Lord kept taking me to Hebrews 13:5, Let your conduct be without covetousness, be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, "I will never leave you nor forsake you."

He has always been there, through it all. I can't wait for the month of May to be over. I have kept asking the Lord what is it that He is showing me, He wants me to trust Him and Him alone. I'm not going to lie, when the rubber meets the road it's hard to trust Him. He has showed me if I would just be still He will show me that He is God. The Lord has showed me what it looks like to be still, calm your spirit (be still in your spirit) and take in the wonder of the Lord around you. When I took my focus off my circumstances and put it back on the Lord, I know that He is God and I am not alone, His faithful and He loves me and He can not lie or go against His word and that is what keeps me going and be about my Father's business.

Where's Our Treasures?

Where's Our Treasures?

Matthew 6:19-21
"Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

I was going to use Matthew 6:25, the Do Not Worry scripture, but the Lord asked me, "where's your heart?" He asked me this because when I was in my prayer corner complaining and not being grateful of what I have been blessed with, and not really wanting to know where my heart is. The Lord showed me my heart through Scripture. I proceeded to tell the Lord that I wanted to have fancy clothes, beautiful jewelry (diamonds and such), a fancy car, but the Holy Spirit stopped me in my tracks and showed me that my wants are nothing. The Bible tells us if we seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
I may not have a Mansion on the hill or even a home on the hill or fancy clothes or fancy jewelry or my fancy car that I have always dreamed of, but do know what I have. I have clothes on my back, food in my stomach, a roof over my head, and a car to drive. All my needs are provided. He will never leave me nor forsake me and He's proven Himself to be true. So where is my (our) heart? I repented of being ungrateful and just being a spoiled rotten brat. I know where my heart is now.

Lord, help us all to have a grateful heart. To see God that You love us very much. In Jesus' Name, Amen!!!

Why Do We Gossip?

WHY DO WE GOSSIP?

Earlier today I was in prayer and I asked the Lord, "why do people gossip?" you know our God is faithful? He answers us, and He answered me.

This is His answer to me:

James 3:6-And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity. The tongue is so set among our members that it defiles the whole body and sets on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire by hell.

James 3:8-But no man can tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.

James 3:9-With it we bless our God and Father, and with it we curse man, who have been made in the similitude of God.

Jeremiah 17:9-"The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked; who can know it?

In the next Scripture tells us who knows our hearts.

Jeremiah 17:10-I, the Lord, search the heart, I test the mind, even to give every man according to his ways according to the fruit of his doings.

I would love to stop right here because I'm pretty well convicted, but I can't.
The Lord has showed me that gossipers has the spirit of division,
Proverbs 16:28-A perverse man sows strife and a whisperer separates the best of friends.

God is extremely good and He will help us with our tongue if we want Him to.
The Lord revealed something to me when I was writing this, in James 3:9 the word similitude is used, that word means likeness, so when we gossip about our sisters or brothers we doing that to Jesus.
I believe another reason why people gossip is, they do it from wounded a heart.

There is a couple of ways that you know someone is gossiping about you:

1- Prayer: The Bible tells us that He will show us mysteries. And I believe He tells us if someone is gossiping about us.

2-Body language: Your body never lies.

Self-Control !

SELF-CONTROL!

Galatians 5:22-25
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, long suffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law. And those who are Christ's have crucified their flesh with its passions and desires. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.

For two Sundays in a row my Pastor has said, "If the computer is your problem, take a baseball bat to it," well I can't use self-control with Face Book so I have deactivated it. I want to finish my testimony from birth to now and I can't do it if I'm always on Face Book. I remember when I could read a book a month, the book that I'm reading now I should have been done with it a long time ago. I have peace about this, I'm also pretty excited about it. I'm excited to see what God will do in my life.

Lord, I pray that You will help me in this. Show me how to use self-control not just with Face Book but in every area of my life. In Jesus' Name, Amen!

TRUST NO ONE BUT GOD!!

Micah 7:5
Do not trust in a friend; do not put your confidence in a companion; guard doors of your mouth from her who lies in your bosom.

The Lord has been showing me a lot of things through the stuff that I've been going through with the people I go to Church with. I am learning that I can't trust no one but God. I have had people tell me that I need to trust people to a point, I believe even is a very fine line. People are fickle, they love you until they see or feel like you're coming between them and with the person that they are very close with; they will turn on you like a Pit Bull turns on her master. W need to be gentle as doves but wise as serpents, Matthew 10:16. We need to have wisdom and discernment when dealing with people. I know I serve a God who never changes, He will never turn on me like a Pit Bull turning on her master and this is very encouraging. He knows I can do all things through Him.
Psalm 118:8
It is better to trust in the Lord then to put confidence in man.

No Condemantion!

NO CONDEMNATION!

Romans 8:1
There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, to those who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.

This Scripture has become the Scripture of the year for me to meditate on. It is pretty black and white to me; There is therefore now no condemnation, I am no longer condemned because of what Jesus did on the Cross. This winter has been exceptionally hard for me. With cold snaps every time we turn around and when they come I can't get out of bed to spend time with Jesus because of pain. I always put on self condemnation until the Lord showed me, He wants us to spend time with Him but our Salvation is not based on us spending time with Him it is based on the Cross. His Grace will cover it, His Grace is sufficient for us. I don't know about you but I'm so looking forward to summer.